poems written by natalie
i’m sad
tears occupied my eyes
for quite some time
I remember your touch
where only I see now
in my dreams
I missed
you
your presence
I feel your distance
time has passed
lost
or
forgotten
a fear I cling onto
but i make sure
I let go
of
the expectations
I wanted to say
so many things
but words can’t seem
to find my lips
what does
this mean
do we still
feel?
us?
Is the connection I felt only
fleeting and unreal?
I wanted to create
I wanted to see
if it was true
Is it
I feel
my dream waits for nobody
I am the fish and the fisherwoman
of my ambitions and success
I am the pole, the bait and the waters, the lake, the forest, the sun and sky
I can achieve it
My fingertips are the blueprint of my dreams
my visions
that I create
A reality
I see
I achieve
I succeed
I am my dreams
my nostalgia
runs in my ears
my vision blurs
drinking, drugs, broken promises and teenage love
everything felt so easy
as if it was all made up
he says he loves me
on a high
is he or am I?
time goes on forever
this moment feels like forever
my tears reveal
what I wish, want, what I could feel
comparison echoes through my eyes
grades could look a lot better
I wish my parents were nicer
age 18
about to graduate
nostalgia hits me again
I wake up
I remember everything
As if it was all a dream
my sacred goddess
love of
my life
give me
light
life
might
strength
tenderness
aches from my soul
Will I return to the heavens
Will I be held
in your arms
Again
Warmth from the sun
Closeness like the moon
Goddess
I am here for you
I am here for you
I see our country
I see our people
People I know
Whom I’ve never met
I see them cry for help
I see them lost at sea
Screaming vulagrites
about others
for who they are
they don’t see
their own faults
their own pain
reflected onto others pushing them to grow
pushing them to change
it breaks my heart
that such
separation exists
between others
between selves
between us
I know that pain
of feeling unloved
not wanting to move on
from our collective wound
we can’t give in
to our fears
our tunnel vision because bridges are built
with hands
of all
built on the children of Her
No longer can we deny
out past
our future selves
time for change
time for change
things are changing
Get up
Recognize
Its our destiny
To create change
Awaken my love!
Let those thoughts run dry
That fear that incases you
Overcome
that state of mind
never
alone
open armed and wide
embracing the tune of your own song
true to yourself
true to the books on your shelf
sprawled across the floor
Sweet kitten
Sweet fawn
absorbing life
teaching you to be
strong
the horizon touches the sky
love finds its way
through these mazes
of mind
time is just a measurement
everything is fine
As I move through the sky
stars shine bright
lit across the night
everything I know
flies by
rush to see the answer
more than again
i go back to
the beginning
where it all began
My mistakes push me forward
As I recollect my thoughts
I can’t believe my life is real
i cant believe I am the one
I sense something bigger
is asked of me
something bigger
to set us free
Only I can achieve this
I have the key
to my dreams
and reality
The hallway is narrow
The light is flickers on
The window is open
But my mind is far from gone
I see others
Interact
As people
Judgers
As I become one of them
Out of lack of connection
Because I have felt like
I am not from this dimension
Flaws flourish
Sensitive energies
I look away
As a an escapist
Running from reality
My fixation of the truth
Holds a heavy burden on my mentality
I remember the window
Gasping for air
I look outside
Seeing what really behind
the curtains
of this stage
and see
there more to life
than holding on to other people’s mistakes
As the sunset becomes pink
Orange hues streak across the sky
Reminding me that we are human
We are alive
I was scared
It spured deep in my stomach
I saw a span of time flash before my eyes
Of my life
I thought about what I would lose
A feat stemmed deep in a root
Caused by lack of
Love?
Deep inside
I know God is truly above
us
Me
We
This life is all what I have
It’s time to act accordingly
i felt held back
restricted from my own voice
because I didn’t know
where to go
i was afraid of making the wrong choice
i didn’t want to listen
i didn’t feel like you would care
or know how much it means
when you say yes or no
even though sometimes I don’t believe you know
me
or
what i’m feeling
as if you could make all the decisions
what about me
dont i get to voice my opinions?
word of mouth, from hearts to ears 