A plant in bloom

The hallway is narrow
The light is flickers on
The window is open
But my mind is far from gone

I see others
Interact
As people
Judgers
As I become one of them
Out of lack of connection
Because I have felt like
I am not from this dimension

Flaws flourish
Sensitive energies
I look away
As a an escapist
Running from reality
My fixation of the truth
Holds a heavy burden on my mentality

I remember the window
Gasping for air
I look outside
Seeing what really behind
the curtains
of this stage
and see
there more to life
than holding on to other people’s mistakes

As the sunset becomes pink
Orange hues streak across the sky
Reminding me that we are human
We are alive

 

My open heart

As I glance at myself
A reflection of me
I see
Who I am
What I’ve become
When there is sun
I shine
Where there is rain
I grow
To become
Someone I know

A deep spur

I was scared
It spured deep in my stomach
I saw a span of time flash before my eyes
Of my life
I thought about what I would lose
A feat stemmed deep in a root
Caused by lack of
Love?

Deep inside
I know God is truly above

us
Me
We

This life is all what I have
It’s time to act accordingly

A Beginning of Time

Just a measurement they say, even though it’s only three feet away
Just like how I used I see you
How it was back in high school

Dazed and confused
Put on print
I remember feeling used

Not until the fairy popped my bubble
But the only thing I was blowing was you
You called me pretty
We had a complex relationship
Didn’t you know?
Aren’t you a pisces moon?

I wasn’t used to feel like this
so blue
Might as well shatter in pieces
Ha, what a honor
Broken hearted by you

That smile, well I used to call you out on those eyes
But it was the smile
That killed me
It was that smile
That made me feel like it was all worthwhile

Holden Caulfield would have called you a phony

But, it’s me who writes my story

Story of you and me

crisscross

oh my open
my open heart
how it is
closed
and wide
and large
and long
filled with love and
a duality
gripped by man
gripped
by the desires
in which we all stand

against
with each other
and for

cleanse and open
open those pretty eyes
and see
the truth that has unfold

do you think there’s hope
for someone who’s felt
cold
alone
and absolutely
lost

there is
there will be love
for those
who believe
in the power of love
abundance and soul

come inside take a peek
a look of what
you don’t run away
you don’t hide

you sit down
in peace
you stand with heart
and you open those eyes
and let the mind
fall apart

This open door

Opportunities come
running
ring ring the doorbell
someone answer it
they look at me
to unlock it

It’s a beautiful sight
i see the light
Everything comes together
is it so bad
to let go of being sad
no
its accepted
cry
i say
let those tears
flow
it doesn’t matter what they think
at least you can feel
the tears
the love
and that moment of true love

Oh
One more thing
This is who I am
THere’s no one like me
I am
Sam

Filled with light and love

Nothing to fear

Nothing to run away from

My baby girl
you are strong
My baby girl
You are where you belong
My baby girl
you are strong
You are where you belong

to all

this the sound i hear ok okay OKAY haha
i hear you sir
I hear your words but but let me tell you this
have you ever thought of me
of us
of us as a family
how we function how we can help each other out
to stop staying stuck in this rut
oh oh

uh nuh uh nuh uh we we don’t use our heads
Don’t use those heads
me neither
why why don’t we let’s take time to think
not that hard, makes a little uncomfortable but it’s worth all the screaming and a shrink
and love
and love

alright okay okay i’m a little selfish

they say it’s the ego the go got me thinking thinking not enough feeling
maybe i’m just trying to be that bitch

it’s my fault but not who to blame
it’s the way things are, but i know that there’s change
to stay above it all and to work together
stop calling each other names and bring closer- all of us as a family
each sides has to give, each side feels a certain way
spitting out hate won’t make the problems go away
I am a lot stronger than you think
or know
it maybe all black and white but I am the one in who
i am gonna change
i am gonna change
change the world change me
but not for you not for you
for me sir for for me and who but i gotta tell you something something important

 

 

~~~
open…open..open…open me up
and hear me out
see the truth
free ourselves from this muck
i am a little sad
i feel sad
i feel that there is so much to do
i am responsible

of all this in the world
i am held accountable
i am trying to stay focused but
I holds me
back but I can’t

but it starts with me
that I have to see
as much as I want to help
the first step to take
is toward myself

i feel that i have never been heard
by you
why can’t you open your ears
why can’t you hear
me
but yell all those things
till i am in tears
i want it to stop
it will
i am tired of this nonsense
i’m tired of things falling apart

 

to me to me

i love you
i love you

 

to you
little girl
to you
little girl
i am here
i know that
we do things out of fear
but we both know how it feels
we do
i am here for you
I am your big sister
I am your best friend
ANd there’s nothing
that will stop us
I know we live in our little world
our world
filled with balloons and trees
for you

don’t be blue
scared
sad
baby
i love you

Raw and naked

Inside a kaliedscope
painted green and blue, light and yellow
i see the sun, rainy days, laughter and tears
I can’t see the voices
but I can hear the words
echo and ring through my ears

warm skin pressed against me
knobby knees, passionful kisses
paper cuts on my heart
it’s hazy dream
filled with fog and winter screams

smoke
tears
laughter
suffering
all happened in one year

repetition, abusive relations
my eyes opened through the glass
now I make my own decisions

But I have one more string attached
Sometimes I want to cut it off
Sometimes I wish I could burn it with a match
But I have on string attached
Even though it leaves me burn marks
It’s the only one I have

You don’t know

Oh now you are an expert
so suddenly
you thought that you can take one good look at me
and realize what i have inside me?

Oh now just because you know my name
my habits
my words
and how I act
makes you think you live inside
me?

you don’t know
half the things
i hold
in my heart, mind, body and soul

sure, say what you think
lets those words run from your mouth
like the kitchen sink
but know this (ha)
everytime you think you know me
you’ve only touch the mere dust

floating ever so quietly
in my galaxy

she

i don’t understand you
i don’t understand you
how could you
be so
sad

is that there is something that hurts you?
don’t you think you can tell me?
don’t you think I would care?

well i thought
i thought
maybe we had some intimacy
or we could have
but you don’t want to tell me
you want to yell
and yell

you…make me cry
and it hurts and it burns
i can’t take
sometimes i think about
not being in here
and i can’t wait to leave
to be honest

but i hope you know i still care
i still love you
even after everything

i guess in the end
we really have nothing to say